Moving On

Ah, social media… the fun games you allow us to play.

I removed Bryan as Facebook friend within minutes of hanging up with him after his angry verbal lashing. I still miss him. I still want to view his updates on Facebook. I want to be a part of his life and know what’s going on with him. But I know myself. And so I know that to heal means stepping away completely.

Unfortunately, he and I still have mutual friends on Facebook, which means that I occasionally have visibility to his updates when a mutual friend likes or comments on one of his posts. Which is how, today, I got to see that Bryan just updated his profile picture:

KB PP

He would never allow for photos of us together on Facebook. But this photo – with whoever this girl is – he not only posted on Facebook himself but actually chose to make his profile picture. And of course he has a ton of Likes from friends of his who didn’t even know we were dating after six months (and an international trip) together. WTF.

How am I supposed to move on when it’s not enough for me to drop out of our joint bible study, remove him on social media, block his number, and exercise self control in not reaching out to him? WHY IS THIS ALWAYS SO FREAKING HARD?!?!

AA

UPDATE: I’m glad someone finally asked… We’ll see what he says (if anything)…

KB GF

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8 thoughts on “Moving On

  1. Yikes! I always remove someone as my facebook friend in the heat of a moment and then later pathetically curse their privacy settings since I won’t be able to know if they are indeed suffering as much as I am. Maybe he didn’t want to post pictures with you because he probably has insecurity issues standing next to a lovely person like yourself 😉

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    • Ha! Thanks for the comment and kind words! I know I wouldn’t have had the strength to defriend him other than in the wake of his angry outbursts, so I’m glad I did it in the heat of the moment, or I’d still be checking back constantly. 😉

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